Anonymous asked:What is your biggest wish? Dream or aspiration?
Don’t forget that it becomes a lot more controllable as you get older.
I really just want to be a great mom. I want to raise happy, loved kids who know who they are and what they want and aren’t the least bit ashamed of it.
I really want this for myself but I’m so terrified my BPD will get in the way of me ever being a good mother :(
With getting older, getting good therapy, and/or a good medication combo, it is very probable to live a “normal” life. By normal I really mean one where we feel fulfilled, productive, happy, and stable. Whether that involves others, wet will see. You can even wait on having kids or reaching any of those milestones so you can feel stable before taking care of another life. There’s no real set age to start any of those ventures (except unfortunately the end age I’d having children is pretty set in stone, but who knows. You could be feeling fine by then, or want to adopt, like me)
You being worried about how you will be by an age where you are thinking of children shows me that you are conscious of yourself and understanding of how your health effects yourself and others. This is a good thing to remember. I know you probably feel cruddy from borderline, but realize that you do have some insight that you will only continue to build on as you start feeling better. There’s a lot of “normal” people who don’t even have it.
They don’t usually have to keep track of themselves like we do.
I know this is a rant, I apologize, but long story short: time will tell. It will take time to heal and better yourself so that you may do the things in your life you wish to do most.